Exhaust

Ever since I was very young… well, to be honest, I wanted to be an adult. I enjoyed kid stuff, but I wanted to contribute, to matter. And so, ever since I was very young, I wanted to know what the purpose of all this is. Specifically, I have always had the sense it’s not…

Often, I find myself feeling conflicted: on one hand, I’m relieved to be alive, and I’m further relieved my ex left me. Some people have been extremely good to me, too. I should keep that in mind, for _sure_. When I add it up, I feel extremely fortunate. At the same time, I would’ve preferred…

Let me just start by saying I love my dog. In addition to this, I’m extremely fortunate to have her (even tho she can be quite a handful—now, for instance). Moreover, I’m supremely grateful I’ve prioritized having a rich inner life and numerous interests. In an episode of The Twilight Zone, there’s a guy who…

When I was in 4th grade, I _loved_ calligraphy. And dogs. That year, after Christmas but long before Amazon.com and its wealth of options, my dad took me to the bookstore, where I spent TWENTY-FIVE dollars on a calligraphy book. I also got a Young MC tape (Stone Cold Rhymin’), not to date myself haha….

In 2022 (where there were no flying cars), I had a few strokes. That experience dramatically changed my life and led me to learn a few lessons I wouldn’t wish on anyone. I spent a while in the hospital and was heavily drugged, such that I could not tell what was real. For a while,…

Ever since I was a young boy, I’ve had interest in both numerology and ESP. I suspect this was before local parents declared such books against God, fortunately. I remember one book at the school library in particular that I especially loved as a first-grader. It covered subjects such as Uri Gellar (turned out to…