Learned Helplessness

I spend a lot of time (for a fly?) thinking about Learned Helplessness. If I recall correctly, the idea is derived from an experiment where a dog was called, and as soon as it left its cage, it was electrocuted. After a couple shocks, it no longer came when called. I believe this is also…

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Often, I find myself feeling conflicted: on one hand, I’m relieved to be alive, and I’m further relieved my ex left me. Some people have been extremely good to me, too. I should keep that in mind, for _sure_. When I add it up, I feel extremely fortunate. At the same time, I would’ve preferred…

What I Remember

As I mentioned, I had some strokes in 2022. Officially, they were cryptogenic strokes because there was no specific cause identified. Still, I really wanted to know the cause so I could be sure to avoid another stroke in the future (cuz MAN they suuuuuck). Last year, I learned that I’d had a stroke at…

Numerology & ESP

Ever since I was a young boy, I’ve had interest in both numerology and ESP. I suspect this was before local parents declared such books against God, fortunately. I remember one book at the school library in particular that I especially loved as a first-grader. It covered subjects such as Uri Gellar (turned out to…

The Witching Hour

I don’t know if this has always been the case, or if it’s a new thing. Almost every night, as the sun sets, I find myself getting increasingly worried about things that range from unlikely to extremely unlikely. It’s as if the sun represents hope and possibility, and as it sets, I feel like yet…

Back Again

So I’m back in New Hampshire, as I seek to avoid the heat ever since I experienced a stroke during a heat wave. As Public Intellectual George W Bush once said, “There’s a saying in Tennessee…. Well, we have it in Texas, I assume you have in Tennessee… Fool me once, shame on… shame on…….

That Time I Went to Hell

As I mentioned, a couple years ago (almost), I experienced some strokes, and I was hospitalized for a couple months (during which time, Queen Elizabeth died, in case I wasn’t confused enough). Anyway, during the time I was drugged in the hospital, I spent some time hallucinating. Specifically, I thought leather was made from human…

Everybody Disappeared

Let me just start by saying I love my dog. In addition to this, I’m extremely fortunate to have her (even tho she can be quite a handful—now, for instance). Moreover, I’m supremely grateful I’ve prioritized having a rich inner life and numerous interests. In an episode of The Twilight Zone, there’s a guy who…

The End of History

In 2022 (where there were no flying cars), I had a few strokes. That experience dramatically changed my life and led me to learn a few lessons I wouldn’t wish on anyone. I spent a while in the hospital and was heavily drugged, such that I could not tell what was real. For a while,…